It has been a weird sort of weekend and start to the week.
Nothing terrible has happened, nothing much has been moving at all in fact. Rather humdrum and routine.
It was kind of freakin me out to be honest. This kind of lull in the ups and downs of life rarely last this long. Not that I’m not grateful to have some level ground for a bit but when I actually took notice I started to get nervous.
In fact, I believe the expression is that I was ‘waiting for the other shoe to drop.” An odd little expression isn’t it? It got rather stuck in my head as I explored this new awareness of calm that has been around for a while.
I bet lots of you out there in the world feel a lot of the same. These are old habits for me. A sense of foreboding starts to creep into daily life when you think this way.
I made an odd little connection that created a big Aha! moment for me. (Otherwise known as my ‘holy crap, I can’t believe I never saw that before’ moment).
You see, I was lucky enough this weekend to be in the area of town that has an amazing little bakery. While I try to avoid too many sweets once in a while I do indulge but they have to be really yummy to make it worth while. The apple turnovers at this bakery are worth every bit of the indulgence.
I planned on having my yummy treat at home later on. However, when the evening rolled around and the kitchen and dining table were all cleaned up I hesitated. After all these turnovers were very flakey which meant crumbs. This mean cleaning up after again.
For a moment I almost denied myself the pleasure of this treat, one that I’d been waiting for because I might have to clean up.
What was I thinking?
Suddenly, it occurred to me that we do this all the freakin time to ourselves. Just like the feeling of foreboding and waiting for the shoe to drop. I was busy wasting time on these emotions because something might happen? I might get some crumbs in my life? Whoa; hold on there!
Talk about wasting the gifts I’m being given! Let’s face it..life will hand out the trouble cards whether I am waiting for them or not so what the heck was I doing allowing these feelings to hang out with me? I was not enjoying the treats, the pleasures of the day…because of the unknowns of tomorrow. I had to give my head a shake when I connected those dots.
Well, no more of that. Crumbs will happen and I will wipe them up. Life will happen and I’ll deal with that when it comes. I will not waste or deny happiness for a second more.
Living in the moment means accepting the joys and reveling in them. If that is a special treat, time with a loved one or just some calm waters…sink your teeth in and enjoy. Tomorrow and all the things is brings will come when it gets here. Let’s stop worrying about what we haven’t got, might lose or problems that may find us. Instead, I want to focus my energy on being grateful for what I already have, accepting what comes and believing that I will have what I need to deal with the future.
Let’s make it a practice to enjoy today and affirm that good things await us.
For the record…the turnover was sooooo yummy. Worth every crumb and then some.