I’ve not been well for a few days and it’s really caught up with me. I’ve been trying to do too much and not allowing my body to rest as it so desperately wants to.
The bigger problem is that the stuff I have pushed myself to do is crap or only half done. So now I really have to re-do it and I strongly dislike having to do that. That is making me feel stressed and irritable.
Even worse than that…I’ve gone too long without proper rest and now I’m short on patience and grumpy.
I was woken up this morning far too early and was already in a ‘mood’. I’m sure we’ve all had those kinds of mornings where you just know it’s going to be one of ‘those’ days.
I haven’t been disappointed.
So far this morning I have spilled coffee on my keyboard, tripped over the dog and smacked my elbow, burned my breakfast, lost a document into the nether regions of the internet, succeeded in worrying about what hasn’t been done and now I’ve worked my stress level into the “I give up” phase.
It’s been a while since this kind of crap sandwich has been served this early in the morning around here. I figured I’d go have a quick nap on the couch and maybe start over feeling a bit better with some rest. I’ll be darned if the dog didn’t beat me to it already.
So I sit back down at my computer, keys dried off and new cup of coffee in hand. I opened my twitter to see this quote.
You need to have a bad day once in a while, otherwise, you’ll never know what a good day feels like.
Ha! Divine whispers right? And that’s when I was jogged back into myself and remembered I get a choice in how I feel. I also get a choice in how I react to the ‘stuff’ in my life. I get it,
I’m worn out, still a bit sick and probably need to just chill out. Instead of taking care of myself, I’m trying to be a freakin super hero and in the end only really hitting super-grumpy, super-stressed and super-anxious. (oh Hey..that would be some really hilarious super villains no?)
Who the heck was I trying to impress anyway? Yes, I had a rough morning. I allowed it to make me angry and frustrated and was about to start playing angry tag. You know…sharing the mood and feeding everyone else my crap sandwich appetizer. Not how I want to spend a whole, blessed, gift of a day!
So…time to do some self adjustment and self care so that I instead find the happy in today.
Sometimes you are just better off giving yourself a bit of a shake and spending the time reducing the anxiety, frustration and crappy feeling. It’s that whole investing in yourself bit you know? I mean..who wants to walk around feeling like that? Not me and I certainly don’t want to be the cause of other people ending up feeling that way too.
So, today is a recoup day. A day for healing, a day for releasing the negativity. A day that I need to remind myself to show ME some compassion and consideration. It’s too easy to be hard on myself and get frustrated. I’d never treat another that way and expect them to do everything as normal when they are ill, so it’s time to stop doing it to myself.
I have a feeling it might take a while so I’m going to go ahead and make another cup of coffee. I am going to spend part of my day making a plan to methodically get my to-do list done. I will prioritize and break down some steps to help with the overwhelm from getting a bit behind. That’s what will make me feel less stressed out and more in control. Then later I will take my dog for run…exercise out the stress!
What is your go-to default to help you get back into a good mood when you’ve had a rough go of things?